Friday, August 13, 2010

For once I'm not rushing

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~29 weeks~

Patience has really never been my virtue. It's definitely not my strong point.

I've noticed that over the last couple of weeks I've found myself eager to have Peanut here. I'm eager to see his face, to kiss his cheeks and smell his skin. I can't wait to see what he looks like and find his personality traits.

Tonight as I lay on my bed reading a book I found myself distracted. This little man kept catching my attention as he poked and prodded and kicked and squirmed. I was sitting with a pillow on my stomach and my arms on my pillow. Even trying to hold the book still wasn't working as Peanut's movements were causing my book to bounce and sway. It made me laugh and he calmed as his father rubbed my stomach and we talked him into temporary submission. I'm sure he just tired himself out.

Trying to wrap my mind around this growing being inside me...it's too overwhelming. It's bizarre, this creating of a human. It's bizarre and natural at the same time. We see it every day and I'm still floored by the entire experience. Have I told you yet that I love it?

I realized that as much as I'm eager to meet him, I am also content to have him stay where he is until the time has come for him to enter the world. We will never be as close as we are now. So physically close that this child is actually inside me, part of me. The connection will never be the same as it is now. It will be wonderful and powerful I'm sure- but it will be different after he is born. There is a quiet ease between us now.

I wish I could share this with B. I wish there was a way for him to experience it. It's so magical and I know he would love it.

Life can be so sweet.

Oh, gotta go.... I think the chocolate chipotle brownies are ready...

15 comments:

  1. You are looking so cute, girl! It is such an amazing thing, isn't it? I thought nothing could top the first time, but I find myself grinning just as widely when I see this baby squirm around. It is such a miraculous thing, how can you not be in awe? It's amazing, and I'm glad you're loving it. :)

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  2. You look just beautiful, Dandy. I love your posts and can't wait to read more as you share stories of when your baby is here. Peanut will be a whole new world to blog about! Lucky for us:)

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  3. Oh, my you look incredible. I love those baby bumps. Enjoy every moment of it!!!!!!!!!

    I just got off skype with my 20 year old baby in Sweden. You took me back 20 years. Thanks. :-)

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  4. Oh my goodness you look utterly beautiful! Oh your hair, your sweet bump!!!!

    Totally understand all your feelings. I sometimes miss the total warmth and connection of pregnancy, but it's nothing compared to the deliciousness of kissing my girl's cheeks - the softest cheeks you will EVER see!!! xxx

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  5. Aw, I can't wait to have that feeling-being so utterly connected to your little one. How sweet! I can't believe you're at 29 weeks, wow. You look amazing, and you can really see that pregnant mommy glow!

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  6. I agree with you 100%! I loved being preggo with both my babies, I found myself wanting to meet them but yet was very content and happy with them being in my belly. I would say its the BEST feeling ever. Its almost a feeling you can't explain in words, but Dawn I think you just did :)

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  7. I remember that feeling of closeness that you have with your children while they are still a part of you..It is amazing.

    Now, I can't read because my little grandson worms his way on my lap to get between me and my book with a big smile hoping to get me to play with him...

    You are wise to take each blessing each day for itself and not waste these precious moments by being impatient for the next!

    BTW, thanks for stopping by.....

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  8. I remember feeling that way too. I loved feeling my babies inside me. I wish Honey could have experienced that even for a millisecond. Oh and a contraction. He NEEDED to feel what one of those was like;) You look adorable my dear. Just glowing from head to toe! I think pregnancy agrees with you.

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  9. You. Look. Beautiful!
    And seriously, even being my third pregnancy, I am still amazed by every single moment. It's unlike any experience you will ever have. You will still have this bond for awhile after he is born, since he'll be so dependent on you for the first year. It took my husband that long to feel a real connection.
    I can't wait to see your little peanut too. But tell him to take his time.

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  10. I love your hair.

    Which I know didn't have really anything to do with the awe of being pregnant, but it needed to be said.

    I feel better now.

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  11. I loved being pregnant too. It is a miracle and you look great!

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  12. I miss being pregnant. :) You look great!

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  13. So true and so well said!! Isn't it indescribably wonderful! I love your shirt and your shorts--too cute. Your hair is so glossy & beautiful. I'll have glossy hair one day. When I'm in heaven. And then it won't matter. Or we won't even have hair. Or something.

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